Ever have 'those' days? Well, today is one of mine. Most days I am quite happy and content with my life. I love my husband, I love my job, I love my house, I love my dogs (no seriously, I am completely obsessed with my dogs!), and I love my family. Most days I feel okay with not being pregnant or having children yet. Most days.
But then there are days like today, where for some reason, it's more of a struggle to put all trust in God and practice patience. And the most frustrating part is that really, trusting God and being patient is my only option! I have no control over when I get pregnant. Or even if. And truly, at the end of the day I only want His plan in my life, whatever that consists of.
Today my brother and sister-in-law found out they have to wait 2 more weeks before making their adoption of 2 children from Ethiopia official, and then can proceed with plans to go get them. Very disappointing. And I really can identify. Each month that I'm not pregnant, it's a disappointment knowing that I have to wait again to find out if I am. Maybe that's why I feel kind of blue today.
However, I really am doing my best to be patient and not think about it. I have vowed to quit watching the calendar, quit letting my mind go there all the time, and just enjoy the wonderful life that I have right now. I suppose time goes fast enough without me wanting to rush it. The future doesn't always bring good things, so I will appreciate what I have for today. Even if it is one of the 'those' days.
"But the Fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, PATIENCE, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control." (hope that was the right order - I just wrote that from memory!)
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