I think the passing of my "due date" was in a way good closure for me. Ever since that day I have felt more content, more at peace. Happy with what I have now. Don't get me wrong, I still want a baby sometimes more than I want breath, but it is easier to be patient now, and just say "in God's timing". I still feel my heart hurting a little bit when I see my friends with their new babies. But after debating if I should grab the baby and run for it, I am able to tell myself that someday it will be my turn.
In the meantime, I have put a lot more effort into my marriage and into taking care of my body. I have been reading the book "The Power of a Praying Wife", and really am learning a lot. I want to make sure my marriage is strong and has a good foundation so that we can not only survive having a baby together, but thrive while doing it. God has already answered one prayer of mine - He has brought me peace and healing. He has given me the most incredible man I can ever fathom walking through life with. He has given me the cutest little chihuahua that has been a great companion over the last 8 years of my life. He has given me two goofy Rhodesian Ridgeback mixes that make me laugh every day and bring so much joy. They make me feel loved, and in a way give me a nurturing outlet.
I really do love my life. I'm ready for the next stage, but shouldn't be quick to pass up on this one. Marriage is so fun and until that baby day comes, I have three "babies" at home who need me and make me smile.
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him." (My baby verse!)
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